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Loneliness

Loneliness is blunt, clear, recognisable. It is when you're either within or outside the circle, but never part of it, no part of you can ever touch the circle. You can't be like the others, and people do not accept that which they do not recognise. Very probably you don't really like the others just as much as they don't like you, or simply there's nothing in common or you're too shy or whatever. But the point is, that at no point does the circle touch you. You find yourself alone. ALONE. It makes you feel worthless. It makes you sit on your bed listening to the saddest songs you know and cry to yourself asking it why it is so unlovable. What is wrong with you? You look for answers anywhere you can find them, asking what's wrong with you. Why are you so, so, so terribly unwanted, when all you want is to get along and it all be rainbows and butterflies and you try to be nice in your own shy and awkward ways. But why can't you be out there with everyone …

A question about love...

Ever felt so completely devoted to something that, nothing else can make you feel greater, that nothing else can fill your heart when it's yours and leave it empty when it's not, and nothing else can ever fill it back again? Ever felt so completely out of your comfort zone yet, somehow, been most comfortable... ever had that one, reason, that could make you want to be a better person, and try harder in life because, it all suddenly becomes worth it, who you are, what you are, how you are... you're suddenly a human of value and importance, just because of that one single thing in life, that makes your mind work a different way, and your heart follows its rhythm, cause you were born, made for it.. cause you love it so much that it scares you ... it makes you think, what if? what if, I'm never good enough, what if I never reach my intention ... what if I loose the dream and the love and whatever else it is ... what if... And everything else will always be second best, not…