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Love is just a feeling, life is what you make it.

I believe that to love someone, you don't need to, or have to be with them. A belief that many disbelieve.

But I'm a lover, not a woman who needs a man to hold her and not look at anyone else. I'm a lover, one of those walking on a thread between heartbreak and eternal bliss. Which is ok, because, either way, I strongly believe my heart has wings and it can fly away any time it wants.

I do love with all the power in me. I do dedicate my whole to love but, love, the feeling, is my journey and my destination. Or maybe I don't even have a destination. Or maybe, I have a greater love you know, the love for love.

I love, with passion and care, but I don't want to have. Even less so, do I want to be had. Not because I fear commitment, but simply because, a feeling is just that, a feeling. Love is just love, and as such, it is liberating...

So I'll love you like crazy for a while, for as long as I can keep my balance on the silky thread of emotions, then, I'll…

Sometimes stupid is the purest form of being, something adulthood seems to be lacking!

Going through old pictures I happen into one of me and my first crush. I'm gone for a moment when I look at myself in that picture. The look in my eyes. Such a naïve smile. Such happy eyes. So in love. The kind of love that, seemed impossible to break. The kind of love that seemed eternal. That cliché shine in my eyes. So true. Where is that gone now?

How have we grown into mean, doubtful beings? Nothing was missing back then. Even if things were missing, they weren't missing in our heads. We were comfortable with life. Ready to take risks and be stupid. We didn't even know we were being stupid so it was all cool.

We loose something, growing up...

The rant that comes to mind when people are all over social media body shaming one another... love yourselves, let others be...

I'm a skinny girl. Very skinny, some would say. Many have even gone as far as suggesting that such lack of weight makes my nose look bigger, makes me look uglier, guys don't like skinny girls that much cause they have 'nothing to hold on to' etc etc. I've always been skinny, I've always had to go through all the 'stick-figure' comparisons possible and were I the kind of girl that valued herself based on looks, boy would I strongly believe myself to be some unlovable, unwanted creature bullied and rejected by society's norms about how a girl should look.

Good thing I'm not and I can live my life my own way and eat, sleep, exercise or not however and whenever I want, without ever caring if a man has something to hold on to or not. I'm not a bloody piece of meat. What I am, or at least hope I am, is a lot of heart and brain, and ok, I'm not gonna complain if I look nice sometimes. But I get enough pleasure in looking how I feel and how I lik…